I've had a touch of blog writers block, quite often not terribly much to write and then when I do it's hard to find the right words. So today I am going to concentrate on what we do have to be thankful for.
This week we've spent 3 days at Peter Mac....we have met and chatted with such lovely, kind and caring people and whilst their news hasn't been great it's been delivered in a kind and thoughtful way. We've enjoyed the craic with what's seemed like an Irish nurse invasion yesterday which was lovely. I am thankful to each and every one of them that delivers their care to Scott in a manner of respect, kindness , consideration and often humour. It's good to still be able to smile.
I am thankful for our much cooler and wetter Melbourne weather....we went from 38o on Monday to 14o on Tuesday. I may be in the minority of preferring wet and cold but 38o is truly horrid. Poor Fiona had her birthday and we just languished in the heat, promised birthday dinner finally made on Wednesday night and birthday dinner was ordered by app and delivered with a very loud knock at the door ( doorbell still doesn't work).
I am thankful that it is so almost and within touching distance ....school holidays. 2 full days left for Isla but because she is a 2017 school leader she has to go back in over next 2 weeks and introduce the new pupils of 2017 around....bet she never thought of that in her inspiring vote for me speech! I am thankful that uniforms shall be out of sight and out of mind for 8 weeks. I am always thankful that her amazing school is a place of inspiration and achievement ....I am very thankful exams are over!
I am thankful for my dog...everyday I look at him and am so glad we chose him and all his funny ways. He is on a diet...vets orders! He has to lose 4kg and is currently about to embark on week 2 of starvation ( he's a Labrador ...they are always starving!) . Those big, brown , feed me mum eyes...it's been as hard for us as it is for you Haggis. Honestly..He just knows when one of us needs a cuddle. Is usually very gentle with Scott and will clamber up delicately ( as delicately as a slightly overweight Labrador can) and lay a head down on a lap.
I am always thankful for my family. My world. I am thankful that we have each other and are living in the here and now and 'what's for dinner ? ' is a genuine daily concern for Ruaraidh. I am thankful that we have this time to be together and can still laugh and tease each other and that hugs abound ...though not on a hot day...those are air hug days! ' oh, you are sweaty!' is never a compliment! I am thankful that they all have jobs and that school / uni is almost done and summer lies ahead ....just not too hot, please! I am thankful that no matter what lies ahead for us as a family we will go through it together.
I am thankful that my marriage is a happy one. We don't get a happy ever after ending but we do get all the bits in between. He is my inspiration. We are about to start on a new chemotherapy treatment and have been told that Scott's hair may grow back! Chemotherapy is palliative , to slow things down , to give us more time. It's not a cure. It comes with a list of potential side effects and instructions to put the toilet lid down when you flush....pee will be cytotoxic! I am thankful that we have this time together. I have recently given up work to make the most of this time. I won't ever get this time back so it's important to me to spend it with Scott and my family. I've gone back 13 years to full time mum...so that makes me around 34 ...I shall take that!
I am always, always grateful to support from friends and family , near and far. Without encouragement , friendship, love , a listening ear this whole journey would have been much harder. Often people don't know what to say but just to say ' it's crap!' ( or words to that effect ) is often enough. Sometimes people say the most ( in my view) inappropriate and stupid things and I wish they'd shut up and just stop with the talking....but I supoose I should be thankful they care enough to say something....anything....random crappy platitudes!
So Happy Thanksgiving one and all....I have a dog to go and feed breakfast to. His first favourite meal of the day!
#thanks
#merci
#dankeschon
#taverymuch
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